So Deathcurse

[deathcurse]

chickenona, I'm going to be bringing you some REAL TALK so strap in.

I know you were one of the people in contact with a member of this board who killed themselves. I think that was probably out of concern for the poster's well-being but my cynicism makes me think you just have an all-consuming need to know everything. Either way, it was a tragic situation that actually hurt my feelings considerably. And I don't care about anyone here.

So let's say this suicide stuff about me is real. And let's say one day I kill myself. How would you honestly feel about that, knowing that you did everything you could to taunt me on the internet about that stuff? How awesome would Elise be in your eyes once that happened, knowing that she was the source of me being ridiculed on the internet about something serious?

My cynicism is correct, I think. You didn't care about that guy. You wanted to be in the know. This isn't a subject you take seriously. Yeah yeah, I'm an asshole, I brought it all on myself, I'm being sanctimonious, whatever. All I know is that this is a subject I would touch LIGHTLY, if at all.

Don't worry about me, my life is fine (not great but fine), and I can't see myself suiciding, unless cigarettes count (I am ashamed of my inability to quit smoking). But you're kind of a scumbag for taking something so serious and using it for your Metal Sludge obsession.

[chickenona]

Oh, come on now, that's just LOW.

I didn't contact that guy offering help. HE contacted ME. And he gave me a number to call. I talked to him and his mom and it was weird and disorienting and uncomfortable, but after the first attempt, he turned out to be fine (well, as fine as any guy who swallows 100 'pins in 48 hours can be) so I felt like I'd done the right thing.

When I followed up and called again, after several weeks, it was because Ace asked me to because he'd been wanting to call and had lost the number. I didn't want to post about it when I found out he'd passed, but Ace and Itjogs said it would be worth it and it was, several people were wondering about him.

I felt awful about it. This was a real guy with a real family who cared about him.

As for your suicide attempt, I didn't seek out ANY information about that. It came to me, from a couple of people I'd made friends with here. On and off, the idea of it coming out on the boards was brought up and when the subject was presented to me I said I thought it would be a lousy idea to go there. Why bother? It's nobody's business, and frankly, who gives a shit?

One of Itjogs' boardfucks had a serious ax to grind with you. Somebody else was flipping out when Iggy brought it up in a thread and I started getting all these texts at work, people wondering why Itjogs wasn't stepping in there to back Iggy up when the shit hit the fan. I got impatient with all this bullshit, and to shut people up and get them to stop texting me, I agreed to post ONLY that I'd heard the rumor, nothing more. I NEVER wanted any involvement with that crap, but I sort of got backed into a corner.

And of course I would feel utterly awful if I found out you'd offed yourself. You're a tool, but fucking A, I'm not a goddam monster. So fuck you for suggesting for even a second that I'm the sort of person who would ENJOY someone committing suicide, or that I would care more about fucking Sludge than about a real human being ending their own life. Get a fucking grip. Real talk my fat fuckin' ass.

[EvilRockPosh]

If this is where listening to glam metal leads, I'm throwing my Twisted Sister albums the fuck out.

[deathcurse]

Oh, come on now, that's just LOW.

Oh gosh, did I step over the line on the subject of suicide? My apologies, Princess. Please continue.

I felt awful about it. This was a real guy with a real family who cared about him.

But I'm not because I make fun of you. Noted.

And of course I would feel utterly awful if I found out you'd offed yourself.

Don't get carried away. I think it would be reasonable for you to feel like a shit, seeing as how you've been so casual in approaching the subject with me.

But at least you're not Elise, saying shit like "Don't go killing yourself over it!," and then hours later PMing me to say you're not going to say anything personal about me.

I suppose she still kept her promise. She has yet to really say anything personal about me.

And even though she's proven herself to be someone who will spread whatever gossip she can about anyone, I'm going to keep the things I know about Elise to myself. I don't know anything funny but I know some personal things that would be sick to post.

Nothing like a suicide attempt or anything but just stuff that I think would be out of line to make public. I'm better than Elise and I'm going to prove it.

[CrouchingStonerHiddenBong]

One of Itjogs' boardfucks had a serious ax to grind with you.

Man, I wonder who that could be.

[deathcurse]

One of Itjogs' boardfucks had a serious ax to grind with you.

Man, I wonder who that could be.

I actually don't know. Who was it?

Itlies made some remark about "picking up where I left off" with some chick and I never understood who he was talking about. I've never had any kind of e-romance with anyone on this board, present company excluded.

[EvilRockPosh]

One of Itjogs' boardfucks had a serious ax to grind with you.

Man, I wonder who that could be.

I actually don't know. Who was it?

Joeboy.

[CrouchingStonerHiddenBong]

How many chicks here have had a serious axe to grind with you?

I mean, before this mess.

[deathcurse]

How many chicks here have had a serious axe to grind with you?

I mean, before this mess.

I know who it is now.

FooFighterFuckingNuts, you best stay gone!

By the way, why are you (I'm talking to Fleas here) telling people we had some sort of e-romance? I've always thought you were creepy, even when I forced myself to be nice to you. It's pathetic that you used me as some sort of status thing when I NEVER EVEN LIKED YOU.

Fuck you and your stupid fucking tits and most of all, fuck your horse face.

[EvilRockPosh]

You done got e-raped, son.

[CrouchingStonerHiddenBong]

It's creepy how he e-fucked every bitch I've ever hated on.

Oh, to be privy to that pillow talk.

[deathcurse]

You done got e-raped, son.

She's going around telling people we had some sort of thing when all I did was humor the crazy bitch.

I know I'm fucking awesome but I think lying about having something with me is pathetic. I'm a fucking shithead, I know this.

[deathcurse]

It's creepy how he e-fucked every bitch I've ever hated on.

Oh, to be privy to that pillow talk.

I wonder how long he had to work on Foo before he got a little cybertalk from her.

I mentioned her tits on the board and she PMed me about it, acting all coy. I was like "Are you going to show me your tits?" She said no. I said "Okay, bye." Then she carried on talking to me about stuff, like the concerts she was going to. I had to be polite but still make clear that I enforce a strict Tits or GTFO policy. I don't care about Foo's hopes and dreams.

[CrouchingStonerHiddenBong]

I just figured he was talking about me when he talked about finishing where you left off.

[deathcurse]

I just figured he was talking about me when he talked about finishing where you left off.

That didn't really occur to me. I tend to believe what you have to say about your friendship with the guy, not someone who flipped the fuck out because I changed the title of his made-up whore stories thread.

[chickenona]

I felt awful about it. This was a real guy with a real family who cared about him.

But I'm not because I make fun of you. Noted.

WHAT? I've NEVER, in this entire clusterfuck, once intimated that I found your suicide attempt funny, or that I wished you'd gone through with it. The whole subject made me, and continues to make me, uncomfortable. I FELT SORRY FOR YOU. Still do, actually.

And of course I would feel utterly awful if I found out you'd offed yourself.

Don't get carried away. I think it would be reasonable for you to feel like a shit, seeing as how you've been so casual in approaching the subject with me.

Again, where have I been "casual" or anything else about this? I've said one thing and one thing only about this whole subject right from the start: IT WAS A RUMOR I HEARD AND I FELT IT WAS NONE OF MY BUSINESS.

As for the rest of this mess, at this point you've dug yourself such a goddam hole, been such a self-righteous dick, and lobbed so many low blows, that you are totally incapable of "proving" that you're better than ANYONE.

[Goddamn Electric]

The root of chickenona's neurosis/anger is a frustrating sex life, lack of self respect and low self esteem. She needs someone who can fulfill her needs, cares for her in a physical and emotional way and sweeps her off her feet.

Don't forget Teh_Menopause.

[SoulsOfBlack]

The root of chickenona's neurosis/anger is a frustrating sex life, lack of self respect and low self esteem. She needs someone who can fulfill her needs, cares for her in a physical and emotional way and sweeps her off her feet.

Don't forget Teh_Menopause.

Then this is what she really needs.

[MickeyG]

I know I'm fucking awesome but I think lying about having something with me is pathetic. I'm a fucking shithead, I know this.

Her standards are low, bro.

I mean, she fucked Zakk and if that isn't scraping the bottom of the barrel then what is?

[deathcurse]

As for the rest of this mess, at this point you've dug yourself such a goddam hole, been such a self-righteous dick, and lobbed so many low blows, that you are totally incapable of "proving" that you're better than ANYONE.

Low blows? Where are these low blows? Your family is falling apart. That's the truth. You should be worrying more about that than what I have to say. That is also the truth. You present yourself as being smarter than you actually are. That is also the truth.

And not only that, these are truths you asked me for!

Honestly, what did you expect when you started this thread? Did you expect it not to go where it's gone? I gave you what you wanted and I'm a dick for it!

However, if you had attempted suicide, I'd leave it alone. I wouldn't pipe up and go "I heard that too! From reliable people!" Don't act like you didn't fuel that fire because you did. You were trolling for Itjogs' cock and wanted to impress him.

I'm better than ALL of you. And that's not being bigheaded. That's me pointing out the obvious. It's like saying I'm better than a stray dog eating another dog's puke.

[deathcurse]

By "all of you" I was referring to chicke, Elise, and hell, let's throw 2T in there.

[chickenona]

Low blows? Where are these low blows? Your family is falling apart. That's the truth. You should be worrying more about that than what I have to say. That is also the truth. You present yourself as being smarter than you actually are. That is also the truth.

No, these are bullshit theories you've pasted together based on what YOU want to see. Just because your limited life experience gives you this narrow view of how a family SHOULD behave, and because YOU interpret my vocabulary to mean I'm "trying" to "look smart" doesn't make any of the crap you spew "truths".

Honestly, what did you expect when you started this thread? Did you expect it not to go where it's gone? I gave you what you wanted and I'm a dick for it!

I asked you a single simple direct question about your bullshit theory. And I've enjoyed the direction of this thread just fine, because you've behaved in PRECISELY the manner in which I've known right from the start that you would. What you've said hasn't really bothered me in the slightest, but of course I still think you're a dick because...well, you're a dick.

However, if you had attempted suicide, I'd leave it alone. I wouldn't pipe up and go "I heard that too! From reliable people!" Don't act like you didn't fuel that fire because you did. You were trolling for Itjogs' cock and wanted to impress him.

I have never trolled for ANYONE's cock on here, period. I've never even given the slightest indication that I've been looking for e-cock. I don't need to "boardfuck". I have plenty of the real thing right here. Right from the start, Itjogs and I have been friends. I don't have to try to "impress" him, and if I did, I wouldn't try to do it with gossip. He's got enough of that for both of us, because of all his girlfriends. And I DID leave it alone, until several people got involved and started blowing up my fucking phone. I explained all this already for fucks' sake.

I'm better than ALL of you. And that's not being bigheaded. That's me pointing out the obvious. It's like saying I'm better than a stray dog eating another dog's puke.

No, sorry, you're still pretty much the biggest piece of shit here. You're worse than anybody who's gossiped about you or anyone else, because you eat it up with a spoon and love a public blowup unless it's about you and your sorry little meltdown.

[deathcurse]

Just because your limited life experience gives you this narrow view of how a family SHOULD behave

Oh wise old chickenona, you're right. I need to be a 50 year old Oxycontin addict to know that cheating on your spouse is dysfunctional behavior that more often than not ruins families. Thank you for sharing your wisdom with the world.

you've behaved in PRECISELY the manner in which I've known right from the start that you would.

Look out, Nostradamus. Did you predict that because you're so wise and experienced?

And I DID leave it alone, until several people got involved and started blowing up my fucking phone.

Holy shit, this making the PHONE rounds? You people need lives. That is fucking crazy.

No, sorry, you're still pretty much the biggest piece of shit here.

I only achieved that status after I started being mean to you. Again, that's what makes someone a piece of shit--not thinking chickenona is great.

[deathcurse]

You're worse than anybody who's gossiped about you or anyone else, because you eat it up with a spoon and love a public blowup unless it's about you and your sorry little meltdown.

Again, you added this so don't go all fucking menopausal because I'm responding to it in a second post.

You are a stupid person. If you don't think I'm not loving being the center of attention with my "sorry little meltdown" (which you've apparently never ridiculed!), you are mistaken. I love people speculating about my personal life. I love it even more when you retards are wrong and refuse to believe anything contrary to what you want to believe.

Still, one thing I would never do is taunt someone who I suspect is suicidal for being suicidal. That's fucking INSANE. I've said some mean and sick things but come on, that's just crazy.

[chickenona]

Hahaha, same old shit.

And congratulations on flipping out when Elise showed up. It's made it pretty clear what's going on here.

[deathcurse]

Hahaha, same old shit.

And congratulations on flipping out when Elise showed up. It's made it pretty clear what's going on here.

Flipping out?

It's amazing that you think posting personal info about the mod to get banned is just being "bummed" but me finally telling EliseThePieceOfShit what I think of her is "flipping out."

I'm enjoying every second of this. If I wasn't, I wouldn't participate! I know that blows you away because Metal Sludge is so important that you're willing to ruin your family over it, but for me, it's just stupid fun.

It was even more fun to respond to Elise's PM where she said "Leave me alone! I've never said anything about you!" I almost went and killed myself over it, it was so funny.

[deathcurse]

By the way, are you guys talking on the phone about me RIGHT NOW? All the while being completely confused over how I could get a big head about that?

[chickenona]

you've behaved in PRECISELY the manner in which I've known right from the start that you would.

Look out, Nostradamus. Did you predict that because you're so wise and experienced?

No, I predicted it because YOU ARE PREDICTABLE.

[deathcurse]

No, I predicted it because YOU ARE PREDICTABLE.

Yes. I am predictable because when I see threads that say "So Deathcurse" asking me to elaborate on certain opinions, I click on them and respond accordingly.

I suppose after 5 years, I should change my patterns to throw everyone off but who will tell you boring twats what's what? I feel like if I don't do it, you'll still harbor dangerous delusions that you're a talented writer and a bright person. People might trust EliseThePleaseDon'tSayMyName with their secrets, only to find out that she's blabbing shit to everyone.

It gives my life purpose. Before this, I was killing myself and calling Stoner, waiting for her to rush to my hospital bedside because, well, that's a realistic scenario that really happened!

[JakeYonkel]

I'm glued to this thread (slow down at Casa Yonkel) and I just got one thing to say.

The idea of my cell blowing up with a bunch of E-friends saying shit like "Hey, did you see what Iggy posted on the Gossip Board! OMG check it out!" is not only totally out of my realm of believability but also funny as fuck.

Step away from the computer.